John and June

J.R. Cash (February 26, 1932-September 12, 2003)
June Carter Cash (June 23, 1929-May 15, 2003)

Its Johnny's birthday today. Happy birthday to him. Hope wherever he finds himself he's happy. I'm sure wherever he is June's right there with him.

I hope it's that way.

People believe in love shouldn't be separated. There's a reason why people live for it, die for it, and are consumed by it. I believe that if there was ever an example of true love, it was John and June.

I dunno that this is a fact but it was in the movie: young John listenin' to a young June and just bein' amazed with her voice. In the movie, they say he kept track of her through magazines and such til they met. After they met all he ever did was try to be with her. He ruined his marriage and prolly caused his family a lot of heartache. I'm sure his kids were a lil upset that their parents couldn't stay together.

But as a man, I understand Johnny. Sometimes what you want and what you got ain't the same things. Sometimes your heart is drawn out to other things. You can lie to everyone you know all day long but you can't deny the truth. It'll come out one day. Always does. There's no lyin' to yourself. You know what it's like to be with someone you know you should love but you just don't? I do. You know what it's like to be with someone that should love you but doesn't? I do. Johnny does too.

He went through hell and battled addictions. I'm sure some of the addictions had to be him dealin' with guilt and self-pity and stress from all the troubles in his life. Lotta times sumthin' enjoyable becomes an addiction 'cause that person's lookin' for a bit of joy in his life.

I know we all need a lil joy in our lives. We need a lil love like what John and June had. We all need that no matter how we might fight it.

I need a gal that'll love me for me. One that understands me, sometimes better than I do. One that'll take care of me when I'm sick, and even when I'm not. I need a lady that ain't scared to work hard with me. A darlin' angel of my own that'll take my guff when I'm teasin' and not put up with it when I'm serious. I need someone reliable and dependable but knows how to take it easy from time to time too. I need someone to share my music and writin' with. I need a sexy hot thing that's got a brain to go along with everythin' else. I need someone that knows that I ain't a dog to be kept on a leash.

I need someone I can be good to. I need someone that I can truly and fully love and trust. I need my June to have a lot of patience with me but a way to keep me motivated and workin' to make me, her, and us better.

I been through a lot for my quarter century. I've had things done to me and done things I'm ashamed of and embarrassed by. I largely hate myself and feel guilty for these things. I can try to blame these things for what I do but I know the responsibility is always gonna fall on me. I need her to understand that and forgive me for my mistakes anyway.

I want to be wherever she is just like I want her to be wherever I am. I want her to make me listen to her music 'cause she knows I'll like it even if I don't wanna. I want her to love my dorkiness when the rest of the world would tease me 'bout my comic book Wednesdays. I want her to sit through the greatest six-hour western the world has ever seen with me. I want her to drink and dance with me, even if I'm a terrible dancer. I want her to spend five hours with me so that it passes fast enough to only feel like one. I want her to make me try new things and help me get better at the things I've already done. I want her to be good to me. I want her to make me dinner and let me pay for hers when we go out. I want her to love me like I love her.

'Cause damn it...I do. I dunno why the hell it's taken me so long to figure it out. She's always known. I've done nuthin' but fight it. And she stood by me anyway. She believed in us enough for both of us. I love her. I always have.

I think I've been so damn scared of that. It's run me off so many times. I've been lookin' for ways out and uncomfortable as hell with her. Not 'cause she's been bad to me but 'cause I was scared of bein' hurt like I had been. But I love her so much my eyes are tearin' up as I write this. I can't think of another girl that'd make me do that. I know there are others I'm attracted to. I know there are others that are attracted to me. I know there are girls that mean a lot to me but it's not the same with this one. She doesn't mean a lot to me. She means everything to me. I believe that.

I'll be good to her from now on. We're Johnny and June.

I love you.

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